"How Not To Look Old"
Okay, so just how excited was I when Charlotte from Charlotte's Weblog contacted me to inform me that I had won one of her book give-aways? Pretty darn excited! In fact the beauty of it (get it...the BEAUTY of it) is that I am three months shy of turning 40 and admittedly having issues with that fact. Have been for about a year now.
I know, I know, they say that 40 is now the new 30, and for someone who really does look younger than her actual age, it isn't so much that I fear looking older, but that my biological clock is running out.
There I said it. I do not want my child-bearing years to come to an end. Actually, it's not even so much about them coming to an end as it is about them coming to an end without us adding a third child to our family. The reality is, I have probably already run out of time...but that's a post for a different day. A day in which I am wallowing in self-pity and not thanking God for the TWO beautiful miracles that I have been blessed with!
Anyway, my winning came in the mail today and it really is as awesome of a read as Charlotte promised. Fortunately, I haven't made too many "old lady or OL" mistakes as Charla Krupp refers to them, such as "too dark of lipstick, yellow teeth, or fake dragon-lady nails" (sort of hard to change diapers or make home-made play dough with fake nails). Unfortunately, I have been seen on the streets sporting, "mommy-jeans, too long of skirts, and a solid-block of hair color".
Seriously, though, I just want to thank Charlotte for the book-giveaway and to let her know how much I appreciate being a winner. Thanks Charlotte, maybe now I really won't look like the OLDEST ROOM MOTHER in my Pre-Kindergarten daughter's class!
I'm so glad you won the book and are enjoying it. I think it is a great book. Thank you so much for the kind things you said about me. It made my day.
ReplyDeleteHugs,
Charlotte
It doesn't matter how many you have or don't have. I think when God puts a child on your heart you long to fill His request. I wonder if God puts them on our hearts without the actual child because some where in the world is a child needing prayers. The one that I lost today no longer needs my prayers but maybe a child I will never meet needs them. I try to offer them up and let God guide the prayers wherever he wills.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is breaking and I have 9 to hug tonight. Don't feel guilty about longing for another. Maybe we can each offer our unique pain for each other that we can both understand His will.
Thank you for your kind words and prayers. They help, they really do. God Bless!
Congrats on winning the book. I'm sorry you are feeling blue about turning 40. I'll be hitting the big 35 soon. I sort of always start thinking of myself as a year older halfway through the year, that way when the actual day comes around it's not such a jolt! I hope your spirits are lifted soon and just because you think you are beyond bearing children, doesn't mean you can't have more, there are other options. If those aren't for you though I know you are blessed with the two little cherubs that have already graced your life.
ReplyDeleteGod Bless and take care.
I'm 43 going on 44 and it's great. I feel like in your 40's you really know yourself very well and this has been a very creative time for me. I think about other cool people who are in that age range, and think no biggie! You look like your about 26 anyhow, so stop worrying! If you saw how sophisticated and chic my neighbors Mom is she makes grey hair look great. It's really her clothes, hair cut, and attitude. She should be a model. As far as they yellowing teeth, I'm too addicted to coffee to make changes but if my dentist is willing to sell me bleaching trays, I'm there!
ReplyDeleteDon't let 40 worry you. Just wait 'til 60, if you think 40 feels bad.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on your win!!!! YOu look beautiful! YOu really do! As for the desire for another child, I'm praying for you!
ReplyDeleteHugs and Blessings,
Congratulations on winning that wonderful book. I was so happy to turn 40..I didn't like turning 30. I know that's backwards but when I was 30 I had come to the realization that my husband and I would never have children of our own.
ReplyDeleteWhen I had my hysterectomy at 43 (I'm 45 now) it seemed as if my whole world had ended. I still grieve for that loss. Sares is right, we still are able to have children another way but I feel to advanced in age to adopt one now. My husbands parents were 44 (mom) and 54(dad) when they had him and I just always remember him saying that everyone always thought his parents were his grandparents lol! I think if we had really thought about adopting we would have done it when we were in our early thirties. It's a regret we both live with today but we believe the Lord guided us this way for a reason.
I will pray for you
Deanna :D