Feeling like I can barely hang on.
And it's all my own doing.
So much has been going on within my family and friends.
Most significantly, my father-in-law was in and out of the ER last week and weekend. He underwent emergency surgery Monday morning. The results were better than expected. No cancer. Just a severely enlarged prostate. The surgeon was able to stop the bleeding and clean out the bladder. For this we are so grateful. While he is not out of the woods with regard to a treatment plan (meaning, he may need an actual surgery on the prostate) he is at least out of pain and breathing a deep sigh of relief. My husband was so stressed and we all felt it last week.
In addition to the medical emergency, Chris and I learned of five, FIVE, couples separating/divorcing over the past couple of weeks. And these aren't folks who have only been married for a few years. These are 15-, 20-, 25-year marriages being torn apart. A few involve little ones, mostly they are couples with grown children.
But can I tell you, from experiencing divorce through my husband's parents, it is still ugly even if you are in your 30s. While we might wish that everyone plays nice and no one takes "sides"...it's obvious in these "later years" divorces that hurts are decades old and everyone is a victim. Even the grandchildren. (Chris' family still struggles with this 10+ years later.)
A few of these divorces have left me in shock...
...and yet they don't.
As I shared with my mom, we live in such a fallen/broken world. Those of us living in sacramental marriages must fight against the tide of a hedonistic, materialistic, and individualistic society every single day.
I don't judge.
I feel sorrow. And pain. For these friends and family members, but not judgment.
To say I haven't wanted to throw in the towel a time or two would be a lie. But I just can't. I won't. My sweet friend, Jamie Jo, just wrote about marriage herself, which is ironic, because it has been on my heart as well.
I have to remind myself of this every.single.day.
(The grass looks oh so greener in my girlfriends' yards!!!)
But in addition to all of the above, I've needed to focus on joy for one very special little girl is making her First Holy Communion this weekend.
Here's a sneak peek of her dress and shoes...
At Mass this morning, Father John reminded us adults of how significant this occasion is for our little ones. How we need to capture that joy and excitement that our little ones are experiencing to receive the Body and Blood of Christ for the very first time...how eager they are to be received into full communion with the Church...when we come to Communion ourselves. Made me cry.
As I mentioned above, I've been crazy busy cleaning and preparing for this weekend. Since Communion is at 2:30 in the afternoon on Sunday, I am doing a formal brunch for Mary and my parents! I've got my menu prepped and groceries bought...as well as the table decorations laid out. Here's another sneak peek...I've still got table linens to add, as well as silverware, stemware, and flowers, but I do love the look. (More on the table setting in an upcoming post.)
That's about it for now! My head is spinning with all that I need to accomplish between now and May 23 (last day of school) like Communion, School Spring Musical (Mary's a Lullaby League girl in the Wizard of Oz), Dance Company Recital, first-ever softball and t-ball games, etc., etc., etc.
Taking it One.Event.At.A.Time!!!
Happy Thursday, Friends! Be good to yourselves and each other,